Honestly, with all the revelations I heard last night, I am still confused as to what step I should do next. Give up or just continue? The only thing I know that I have to live by is to do whatever makes me happy. If something is the sole reason why I am happy then I should stick with it.

I am a person who is selfless in a few ways. I tend to consider others’ feelings, put them in a pedestal while my own happiness is being compromised. That’s the way I treat things for so long. But now, people keep on telling me that I need to learn the courage of being selfish.

Positive selfishness is how I call it. Selfishness has a negative connotation yet I need to learn it to help myself. I need to put myself first before anyone else.

I might be contradicting myself if you will compare this entry to my previous one. After giving the issue a serious analysis, I mentally sorted out the facts, and eventually I realized that my happiness comes first. This selfishness did not root out because of ill thoughts or intentions. This is for me; for my own happiness.